May Allah answers what I pray for my life

How long time has passed and I do not write some memories? A week or more than a month? Seems that memories aren’t kept in the box that happened to be in. I wish I could rewind those things which is I’ve been through but I couldn’t even remember when those things happened in my daily, what date and day. Apparently, I just got to be older than I am now.

Tonight I do not wanna talking about what happen today, I just want to talk about life and what my dreams is.

I want do something that I eager to do that, well everybody wants to.

I have a mind in design. Particularly, I want to see insight what Corel draw have. I want to explore my skill to use that program beside I used to using that program to make some design and I love design and I love to see when my pieces pinned on the wall and people see it. But, why there is no big desire from my heart to do that and make it real. Is that signed that I am just having time with design? Actually, when I was schoolchild I love to see model walking on the catwalk and see what they got on their own body and of course the clothes designs.

I have a mind to live in New York and I’d go around there, see what the city got. See the people do and go for work. I mean, I just got stunned when I see them so making do. I don’t have any specific way how I got there whether it’s just because I am so freaky rich or I got scholarship in New York University. Ha..

I have a mind to marry with overseas guy. I just want to make lifestyle just like theirs. I mean, how they teach their child and they are grown up with a good health and mind, see the child go through their school life succeeded, they have bright life, and others good things in your life with your family.

I have a mind to become the fame nature photographer, fashion week photographer too . Laying hands on the achievement for being the best photographer ever. Wow.. so grateful I am.

I don’t want to become a great accountant or working on the accounting spot. I feel like I don’t go up for that and I do not meant to be so ungrateful but I just not that into accounting.

I don’t want to be a civil servant.

One day, I am gonna have pets. A tomcat with a three color and have a long tail, angora one, a turtle, a baby tiger, a rabbit, and kitty. 

I have one eager desire. I will make this happen. And I am praying to Allah please make this pray happen. I want to go to Holly Land, Mecca with Ayah.

I have some plan for my sisters and brother if I have a chance to become a deadly rich women. Amin.

For Ayu, I will register her to the boarding school. She has to get scholarship after finish school. Though I know she’s not really good at school. But I really wish she have a bright future. Ayu will be a detective women, or lawyer, or singer. She’ll be professional of those kinds.

For Ririn. I am going to enroll her in an agency in town because she has good looks. Ha.. I am kidding. I will insist her to wear veil though. Ririn is a cute, naughty, and attractive girl so I am going to put her in to boarding school too. Ririn will be an adventurer, housewives, chief of editor of fame mags.

For Ikal. I do not really know this guy, how his personality, but he sort of a gentle guy and friendly. I’d let him choose whatever he want to be. But definitely I will suggest him to take one place in engineering faculty, major of study mining. I am being snappish waiting for him to grow up and be a man. Cause he’s on the third place after Ayah and I who’s going to bring up our family.

Maybe this is the last thing I want to have in my life, die in a good way.

May Allah answers what I pray for my life. Amin.

ruin week and blessed road for better thoughts

This is my first posting notes on my fb account, officially. Obviously, everyone can see that i've posted things about taxation..but i'm not called that as a note.
I am in the living room, listening music, somebody to love from queen >nice song really, lay down my bones on the sofa with the half dark light. I'm trying do some creativity imagination.. But, seems like i can't got there!! Agh..i hate this time, too much chaos in a week, first my slot memory got screwed up by viruses and its gave an effect to my ponsel unwork properly..but then it's going out well because of my geniusity..
Now, my cartridge was broken, maybe it is caused by my feet, it's unconditionally move, i was sorry cause i kicked its bump. And i think that kick drove some broken to the cartridge! Oh..i know i used to apply my rude and rough to my hardware.. You know it's kinda a rugby game.
And the winner of the choas is i am on the spot of insufficient of money.. Yeah! What a great life. Just keep up girl! I can through all this messed up and everything and ruin is going to returns the way it was :)

death

this is 5 july..at night