Let’s start with.. I was shocking and I am shocking.
Realizing that now, I am alone in this earth, at second hand. My father was dead this February and I have lost my Mother on 2005 pretty enough to makes me gone crazy. I mean none of person who is really care about me, none of my family tree would die for me, and I lost my mate of debate of issues like politics, religion, concepts, and life. And If you read this note, please don’t say sorry for it. it just makes me feel worst and worst. So just continue the reading and hear me, I am shocking, out. Losing their both is not pretty enough makes me gone crazy, I mean I am not losing my mind after all.
Maybe it is kinda fascinating title for you. Finding your princess and prince. But this note didn’t guide you how to find your man or woman nor what types of “prince” or princess” that would be fit for you. It talked about my friend, my male friend , who make me shocking, mad, cried out loud, a drop of my tear, and confuse. Today, he was whispering something. I said if this is not worthy enough to take my pleasure I am gonna kick you ( as I was in the midst of interesting conversation too). So, he stopped and continued. Seeing me and all of us. A second.” I have news and I would like you to know it” he said. And other friend burst out. .Is it the news about your married? and then he smile. But he never stated that he is now—freaky little husband or happily little husband.
Noooooooooooo……what the hell on earth!
He just having shy smiling as I just like worm which is just got pouring by heat water. You can say I am terrible not thrilled by how happy he is. I can't just believe in him. So, I was searching his eyeball, trying to find the sight that telling me “ Ha…you really bought it!” In other words, it is just practical joke. At the first stage, I wasn’t believe it. At the second stage, I am in between. At the third stage, I said to my self, he just tells the fake thing or maybe it is just a dream. Eventually, I was just stay very still and giving in but you know it is probably a scheme. And the moment when a drop of my tears out that the moment I realize that you are not just you are like I now you before, the moment when I know that you just devastated your life, and the moment when I am feeling you at ease and I am happy for that. It fuses in one tears, just one tear but leaving a huge question mark and a universe of confusing. You just shocking me, my today, crash my soul, my heart, my mind, my mood, and sight of life – ok, I am overwhelming now-- and you just crazy as always.
You said you still the old one. But I just can't handle the married man. You are not too cool anymore. I couldn’t stick with that. I am sorry if it is broke your heart. I was so mad at you at that moment– no reason-. i know you have a right to be happy include having someone that always stand by you in a good and in a bad but I just can't deal with happily 20 years old man who just got married. I mean why.
People say, I should happy for you, so I am telling you and not to forget this…I love you and I’ll be your supporter and wishing your married is pouring with the blessing of God --oh God I can't believe I said this stuff to you. And I am sorry that I have been how I have been in the place and in this note or like you just did something against the law ^_^ and I am chilling out now as my shocking fade.
Actually, I am still hoping that he texted me “//can't believe it you just bought the joke//” . Maybe I am not going to believe in him until I saw him in the wed party with his co-star sitting like statue, make up, and stuffs. And I hope you read this.
P.S what the heaven on earth for you!
