Oo..GOD ! I really eager do hedonism things. I miss that things much when i was at first semester. I do what i wanna do. Walking around the mall, look up pasar 16, seeing what people do, and take the wise things then realize how Allah give His blessing on me. And now i just missing that. I was being so productive when i am on that point. Experiencing what people do only in my mind.

Uhh.. What a bad around guy. He's smoking, its ashes and smoke goes to me. And his wife already got cough then i am using my unfriendly face like i wanna slap him and using my gross staring eyes at him! Uhh.. Why he's not got my messages??

Back to my point. I want do some to entertaint my self, get my dizzy soul. Well, after this final exam week, i am going to make it up for you, my soul...

I wanna go to Mall, karaoke, go to 21 theater, window shopping...but if i have enough money..well, there's no one could blame me if i am buy stuffs :)

Scent good air.

I'm in the middle of hectic glamour area.. Well, we're in uni qq yudisium. And this event ain't start yet while people are waiting and murmuring! As i know i will through some things like this next 2 years..i am excited too, seeing people celebrate their graduated. Wish luck around you pals!!

Blessed roads.

Why people won't fight for their own life?
I'm gonna fight for all the best things in my life, even it'll be so in pain, i'm not let my self down.. And when i'm at that point, i'll emphasize and insist to my self, never stop fighting. All i have to do is believing and say that everythings happened is good for me, and next time, when i lose, i am gonna make it up for sure :)

i'm on the bus now, on the road from indralaya to palembang.. Looking throuh the window, It's cloudy though, i wish the rain won't pouring me down when i get home.
Inspiring and Blessing road.

Blessed roads.

Why people won't fight for their own life?
I'm gonna fight for the best things in my life, even it'll being so pain, i'm not let down.. And when i'm at that point, i'll emphasize and insist to my heart, never stop fighting. All i have to is believing and say that everythings happened is good for me, and next time, when i lose, i am gonna fix it and make it up for sure :)

i'm on the bus now, on the road from indralaya to palembang.. Looking throung then window, It's cloudy though, i wish the rain won't pouring me down when i get home.
Blessed road.

on Wednesday, i was being blood donor, then i after transferred my beloved blood in the blood bag i got faint and next day feels no good. I've never expected i could get faint. i am pretty sure about the rules of the blood transferring. but i don't know why it;s go with on that way. FAINT!

But for sure i am gonna say, when I go faint, it's TOTALLY COOL man! i feel my body, its reaction..

and now, i am missing my blood, where them go anyways??

i promise to my self gonna fill that list blood donor till its get 50 time being blood donor.

lunch tadi..bareng Yuli dan Nia, membicarakan tentang bagaimana dakwah itu dan bagaimana dakwah yang ku jalani sekarang. deep breath taking and exhales. bagaimana jadinya kalo saya tetap seperti ini tanpa ada kemajuan dalam hal berdakwah, termasuk berkorban spenuh hati, jiwa, dan raga di dalamnya, nantinya ketika para angkatan tua meninggalkan kampus, regenerasi di mulai dan bagaimana jika yang selama ini mereka (baca : angkatan tua) berikan kepada saya belum cukup untuk mengembangkan wadah dakwah ini. bagaimana ketika saya ikut dalam dakwah dan karena ketidaktahuan dan kedangkalan saya tentang nya dan kemalasan saya untuk menguliknya dakwah itu lebih dalam ia akan menjadi lebih buruk dari sebelumnya. jadi bagaimana ini?

btw, talking about this,it's just something i've never expected to talk about. but, i like. and i like being MAHASISWA.

MY AYAH

when you realize that someone who's u, all this time, said as your hero now is a loser. he's always be your guardian, you tell everyone about him proudly, he's a guy that you can always lay your head on his shoulder when you are in hard time, he's the one you always meant hear, the only one of your adviser, and you reckon on him. . but, now he's just pathetic. he is miserable.

but i could bear that loads for all my life. since he loves me, i love him and since he's always tell his friends that i am one of his blessing in disguise sweetheart daughter. and having me is the best things that ALLAH sent in his life. :))
i will always love him till the end of my life and respect him. i love my AYAH.