What kindness that I have achieved today??

I am feeling so terrible today… I don’t know why but every thing I did was not quite good and its like doesn’t gimme a positive affected. One things I learned today is when you wanna do something first you’ve to thinking before you step up and if it is a good and positive one take it whatever its taken, and when you realize that it not good take a lesson and learned 'bout it. And when the thing you already know is bad, as a smart girl you’ve to leave it.

I am really feels so terrible 'bout what I did for today. I just do something useless, I have to outfight from this habit, its makes me feels so nasty when I just stay very still, no move up, no changing, no improvement.

I got sign from my best friend status on facebook, he said feeling so bad after final exam, 5 problems in 2 and half hours. Fiuh… woow, so then it’s good right, the worst one can bring you to a better life. After you graduated, there’s so many company wants get you as employee. See, it’s good huh.. but, how 'bout me? I used to being anxious when final exam comes and not really prepare on it. I don’t where is my spirit, my motivate, my brain goes>>>>


I wanna tell about my yearning for my beloved hometown Muaradua, my beloved guys, and beloved family.. this is holiday I just settled my ass at home, nothings to do. Being loafer one.


Huh.. I miss my guys, kunyit, dodol, and pedicab driver, miss ‘em so much. But why I don’t have any appetite to come around. Haa.. may be because of I don’t have any home for living and no family who’s supposed to be invited me to come and see around. Uh.. I just said something haphazardly. I live my dad but why he is not yet call or text me.. uh, I am so upset 'bout this all the time.

Kunyit, what is up? I miss you, sorry I am not being such a good best friend for you, we are not sharing each other intensely, and coz we are in distance. But I am glad coz you still texting me, told something or just asked how am I now and you are the noisy one. I was confused what’s make you three close to me. And you and you are family is pleasant host ever, when we are hanging up or some unimportant gathering, you and you are family is so welcoming. Thanks Nyit. Why I call you kunyit, it’s named by dodol and mang, just ask em, I don’t know where or when its being. and I love to call you that way.

Dodol, you’re always be my good man, crying baby, hu,,, I miss you, I yearn 'bout how beautiful ur handwriting and how clever and diligent person you are. and I missed our debate and about the girl that you in love for the first time, right?? And ur complaining 'bout Adrian and Adrian complaining 'bout you, you are so mad at rian coz that guy, you think, so showing off 'bout his perfect life. Haa.. and why I call you dodol, mang said you were so in love with dodol garut which sell @ store near our school building.

and Pedicab Driver. How are you? You are the craziest guy, when you come, the aura going to be so fun and full of laugh. Haha.. you are the professional one that can give any funny name and defined it, ur joke I missed it. And one of us who are has potential to being so panic action and act so pleonastic. And honest person, you used to tell directly 'bout things, it’s just come out, you said it and most of it are humiliation. Huh.. I’ve ever so mad at you, why you and dodol likes to humiliated me and call me some freak name. but still, I missed you all